Week 21 – Let’s get some answers!

Week 21 – I don’t think the baby liked being at the blood work/genetic councillor meeting. It was kicking like crazy as soon as we sat down in the waiting room. Fiancé could even feel them, he thinks it’s so cool! We met with our genetic councillor who said our case was a good one for her. She went over everything and was extremely optimistic. The Dr then came in and spoke to us, and she was also very optimistic. That was all very reassuring. They answered all our questions and we felt pretty good about it. I got the blood work done and they said they would call us in approx 10 days. Well…that would be Christmas day and that stressed me out. She said they usually get back pretty quick so not to worry. I was surprisingly calm after the whole meeting, we both were. Here’s hoping we get a call soon!

We will be celebrating Christmas early with Fiancés family this weekend, so we are in a mad crunch to get all of our gifts ready. I have soo many lists that I keep leaving at home! Oh my brain! I have discovered I can’t function without lists. They keep me organized and calm. Excited for the celebration!

Symptoms:  Still feeling great but really starting to feel….heavy. And out of shape. My working out in the morning is decreasing more and more. And my thighs and butt are starting to feel bigger – and all of the Christmas treats are NOT helping. Once all of the Christmas shopping is complete I will get back to focusing on my thighs and their size! My skin is dry and my back is soooo itchy. I’m slathering baby oil on my entire body – that I can reach right before I get out of the shower and then slathering cocoa butter on right after. This is happening every day. So far everything is looking really good but my back is sooo itchy. When I catch Fiancé after I get out of the shower I can sometimes get him to put lotion all over my back.


Week 20 – A choroid what…?!

Week 20 – Being around drunk people is…interesting…. I can handle Fiancé and his drunken silliness but when it’s co-workers it’s….different. I had a LOT of patience at the work Christmas party. A LOT. We went out for dinner and ate a ton of greasy food which ended up making me feel really crappy. From there we went bowling and I was very happy to be standing and moving around the rest of the night. It was difficult to organize the drunks into teams that could productively bowl. I took the least drunkest co-worker and Fiancé, who had met us there, and claimed my team. It was actually tons of fun, and I ended up outlasting almost everyone and made it to the end of the night. I’m glad it’s over with though, I can’t handle many late nighters like that.

I had my next midwife appointment this week, and told Fiancé not to bother coming as he looked kind of bored at the last one and I’m sure it would just a routine appointment. It started out great, she told me she saw my ultrasound and that it looked great. Then she said, there was a Choroid Plexus Cyst located in the baby’s brain. I heard nothing after this, I blanked out….a what..?!? A cyst in my baby’s brain…?! What the heck does that mean?!?! She could clearly tell I was gone and slowed it down. She told me that it is common and they USUALLy disappear in a few weeks BUT that it’s also a marker for trisomy 18. YOU’VE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!!! ANOTHER F*&%ING MARKER!!! What the heck??! So I’m sitting there alone, trying not to cry, taking it all in, trying to remember everything she’s saying. She then told me how my chances of trisomy 18 is now even greater due to maternal age and was something like 1 in 150. WTF??!? She kept telling me not to worry, and that of all the baby’s that she’s seen with cysts have been fine and the cysts have disappeared. I didn’t care. It wasn’t reassuring. I hated everything she saying. I stayed calm. I didn’t cry. She told me if I left and forgot everything I could page her and she’d talk to me and Fiancé together. She also asked if I’d like to send my ultrasound to the specialists and if they felt it was necessary they would send me for the NIPT blood work and they would then decide if I required another ultrasound or escalate to amnio. All of this was so overwhelming. I decided yes, I’d like to get the NIPT, I needed to know for sure what the heck was going on with my baby that I felt deep down inside was healthy and amazing. She told me not to stress and would call me with my appt. We then listened to the baby’s heartbeat which was a strong 149 and heard it moving around and I could feel the kicks and hear them on the doppler. It’s always so amazing and THAT is reassuring. So I left feeling completely freaked out and went home to immediately google. I don’t care how much you say you won’t, because you will. Fiancé came home and found me deep into google – which was actually providing reassuring results. I explained to him what had just occurred and then read him some of the google results and told him I took the next step to NIPT. He stressed out immediately but was happy I said yes to the NIPT and said he’d come with when it happened. He was also happy about the google results but it still didn’t mean OUR baby was ok.

The rest of the week was fine. I googled more, I tried to stress less. I got a call from the midwife who told me my appt was first thing next week. I’m glad it’s happening soon!

Symptoms: Well….other then feeling stressed I was still feeling great. The baby movement and kicks are definitely getting stronger and more frequent and Fiancé has been able to feel some little bumps happening. It’s pretty incredible!

Week 19 – There you are!!

Week 19 – Ultrasounds are absolutely incredible. It’s so crazy!! There was our baby, up on the screen looking perfect and moving around all over the place. We could see it swallowing, sticking it’s tongue out, stretching the arms above it’s head, and kicking it’s legs out. Amazing!! The ultrasound was so indepth and took quite a while….but the screen was turned away mostly and Fiancé had to wait in the waiting room for most of it. Finally he got to come in and she showed us our beautiful baby. We stayed strong and still haven’t found out the sex. It’s killing me but I’m also super excited about it. Let’s see if we can actually wait the entire time!

On another note, we finally had a big team meeting at work. By big I mean, the two bosses, the other girl and myself (not big at all but very much needed seeing as I STILL haven’t been able to tell anyone I’m pregnant!). I was feeling very stressed out prior to the meeting because one of the bosses was being very short with me and I was taking it very personally. I was overwhelmed and pulled her aside and blurted it out –
“I’m Pregnant!”. She had NO CLUE. I felt a lot better going into the meeting and she said she’d have my back if anything came up or they got upset. At the end of the meeting they asked me if I had any comments and out it came “Sooo…….I’m pregnant”. They were both shocked as well! I really hid it well! They were both very very happy for me and super kind. I’m SOO happy that’s over with.  I went back to my desk and told the co-workers I sat with who were also SHOCKED and couldn’t believe it. I was pretty proud of myself for hiding it like a pro! I let the cat out of the bag just in time for our upcoming work Christmas party this weekend. Thank goodness!

Symptoms: I was super emotional this week. With the pressure at work and the amazing ultrasound I was a blubbering mess. After finally exposing myself at work, it felt so great to bare the belly. No more giant sweaters or scarves or hunching over when I walk. Still feeling great, energy level up and the only thing I want or crave is sweeeeeets. Flutters are coming back pretty strong this week. It’s such an incredible feeling!


Week 18 -A code in by node (a cold in my nose)

Week 18 – If you could die from a head cold, I was sure it was going to happen to me. Fiancés cold had officially infected me, and hit me HARD. I was out for 2 days, which were unfortunately over the weekend. Luckily work was pretty easy this week as both bosses were away and I was able to take it easy. My official 3 months at my new job happened this week – I made it without anyone knowing….unfortunately because both bosses were away….I wasn’t able to talk to either of them about it or reveal my pregnancy yet. Which is sooo hard to hide. I’m honestly wearing the baggiest sweaters and biggest scarves ever made!

Symptoms: I’m still feeling great. Belly is getting bigger every day and the flutters are coming back but still very light. I’m less panicky though, and feeling nice and calm. Super excited for our ultrasound next week!