Week 14 – Absent?! What do you mean….how is that possible?? We start off the week at our meeting with our fertility Dr to review the IPS scan – which in my head was AWESOME and was so excited to hear what he had to say. Fiancé and I sit with smiles on our face that very quickly turned to looks of concern. He read the report where the tech noted, Nasal Bone = Absent. ABSENT. WTF does that mean?!?! The Dr didn’t seem to be very concerned. He went on with the report and read all the other great things that he said were great, asked us if we’ve started on the baby’s room, asked if we’ve picked names, asked us if we’ve started telling people and told us flat out to be excited and celebrate this baby. Which we have been! And we’ve started on the baby’s room, and telling people, and bouncing names around. But now…there’s a cloud of concern.
We left there, headed home and continued our day as planned. Give our house a really good cleaning. After a few hours, we were exhausted and met in the living for a moment of relaxation…and googling. We both started silently googling “absent nasal bone” separately and then asked each other – what are you doing? Some really scary stuff started to come up. I was trying to read more of the “they said my baby had an absent nasal bone all the way until I delivered and he is a perfectly healthy baby” posts. But there were still the FACTS…and the facts were scary. Absent nasal bone = downsyndrome. I couldn’t even read them. I started to get really upset, Fiancé was also getting scared, we tried to reassure each other…and finally he said lets get out of here. Let’s go fly some kites and take a walk on the beach. So we bundled up and headed out. It was a great way to get our minds off of it.
Throughout the week we talked about it some more, studied the ultrasound pictures that were given to us – where I was positive I could see a nasal bone and was sure the tech just missed it. Reality is, I go for blood draw #2 this Saturday and have my midwife appt to review everything in the week after. I ended up having a complete mental breakdown one night and called my midwife first thing in the morning. She was amazing. She said she’ll review my bloodwork as soon as it comes in and call me. She also said she’ll send my scan to a specialist and if they feel necessary they will call me in for another scan. All of this made me feel a such a huge a relief and like I’m in really good hands. So now…..we sit and wait for the call. Fiancé is away travelling next week so big prayers that it’s good news!!
I attended a very close friends baby shower on Sunday and still didn’t tell her or the friends that I had there that I was pregnant. I don’t know, I just didn’t feel like it was the right time. But then, she had the baby 3 days later!!! And I felt like then it was the right time. I sent her the u/s pic and she was sooo excited!!! 🙂 I’m also meeting a great old friend for dinner Friday night and will tell her! So, we’re getting the word out there, we’re celebrating, and Fiancé has felt a better since I called our midwife.
Sending out all of the positive vibes to the universe right now, hoping for positivity to be sent back to us.
My Symptoms: Waistline is still expanding but my weight is not greatly increasing. I start the day about 2-3lbs heavier then where I started but can end the day up around 7lbs heavier. I feel good! We’ve ordered a new bed (hoping the great Endy reviews are true!) and will hopefully have it by Friday because my hips and our mattress are NOT friends. It’s tough sleeping on my side on a crappy mattress. Headaches have been minimal this week. Energy is staying up there and my moods have been better. I still haven’t purchased maternity clothes but think it’s time I pick up a pair of pants and at least some baggier clothes. I have to hid my pregnancy at work until the end of the month at least. I just started this job and am still on the 3 month probation. I don’t want that to weigh on their decision to keep me or not – and god I hope they do because I’ll never find another job now!!